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To be Alone

 In the quiet town of Lalgudi, where the river Kollidam flowed with unhurried grace and the mango trees cast long, patient shadows, Gopal sat under the old banyan tree one evening, watching a small group of young recruits practising drills in the open ground near the temple. Their movements were sharp, uniform, and strangely lifeless. Up, down, turn, salute—again and again, like clockwork.

Mr. Raghavan, the mathematics teacher, arrived with his usual slow steps and sat beside him on the stone bench.

“You are watching the soldiers,” he observed mildly.

Gopal nodded. “They move so precisely, sir, yet they no longer seem like ordinary human beings. They have become… machines.”

Mr. Raghavan looked at the marching figures for a moment and then spoke in his calm, precise way quoting Jiddu Krishnamurti:

“To be alone is obviously to be in a state of revolution against the whole set-up of society. And that requires an extraordinary perception of the effects of power. Have you noticed? Those soldiers rehearsing—they are no longer human beings in the full sense. They are machines. It is only the mind that does not belong, that stands apart, which can be truly alone. And aloneness is not something one cultivates. Out of that aloneness comes humility. It is this aloneness that knows love—not power. The ambitious man, forever seeking to become somebody, will never know what love is at all.”

Gopal was silent. The sound of the drills continued in the distance, crisp and mechanical, while the Kollidam murmured softly beyond the fields. He thought of his own quiet wishes to succeed, to be recognised, to rise a little higher than others. For the first time the connection felt clear: every push for power or position seemed to move him further from the simple, living quality that Mr. Raghavan called love.

“So to be alone is not loneliness?” Gopal asked at last.

“No,” replied Mr. Raghavan, brushing a dry leaf from his dhoti. “Loneliness is the fear of being empty. Aloneness is the ending of that fear. When the mind no longer belongs to the march of ambition and authority, it becomes quiet enough to know love.”

The drills ended. The young men dispersed. A soft evening breeze moved through the banyan leaves. Gopal sat very still, feeling no urge to become anything in that moment. In the gentle, unassuming way of Lalgudi, where even the deepest revolutions arrive without noise or banner, he began to sense that true aloneness was not a withdrawal from life, but the quiet ground from which humility and love could grow.